This picture is so appropriate for what I am feeling, right now.  I have so much going on in my head right now, it feels like it is going to explode.  I decided I hate change.  Then my brain says, no you don’t!  It’s the only thing that you can really count on in life, is that nothing stays the same.

As some of you know who have been following me on here, I lost my Grandma last Christmas Day.  My Uncle had been watching over her all these years.  Now that she’s gone, my Uncle needs to go back up to be near his children up there, so they can help him.

So they came down over the weekend and lets just say, they walked into a nightmare.  I don’t think they had any idea, that without Grandma, he collected every newspaper, every little thing.  So it’s a really good thing, that they are taking him up there, to Rockford where my Grandma and Grandpa are buried so we don’t go through what we did with Grandma.  Long Story

OK, so the silver lining in all this is that, as cousins, we have reconnected in a way that only change like this can bring about.  It is amazing, and I’m sure that the elders are happy that this new relationship with each other has come back around.  Feels just like being kids again, sitting around the table at dinner the other night.  My cousin commented on how much my daughter April looks like me and it was so sweet.  They hadn’t had a chance to meet my family in a long time.  Too long for most of the kids to even remember, let alone my grandkids.

Anyway, I just wanted to take this opportunity to thank them for their efforts to come down, close up the appartment, and take him back up with them.  I know this was a difficult task, and as we all get older, let’s use this as a time to refect and renew relationships that have been left unattended.

Our elders had a reunion every year, and now I see why.  When we all got together again, even though it was surrounding a funeral, it was great.  I know I can hear some people going, well duh, but the family was so fragmented because of situations and greed between older than us sibblings, that it was extremely toxic.

Now that it’s better, it is wonderful.  I wish my cousins the best of luck and I will offer to help in anyway I can.  Here’s the I hate change thing again, it feels like I’m losing my Grandma all over again, because my Uncle, the ornery guy he is, I love him so much and hate to see him go.

So please, life is short.  Please put aside your differences in family matters, because hanging on to all that does, manifest itself in your body.  I’m speaking from watching others, because I learned a long time ago, to just let the shit go, like one of my other posts I wrote.

So say a little prayer for them so they have safe travels home, and my Uncle adjusting to his new life.  Thanks again for reading this.  Till next time…